I have been at constant worries since last week. I guess my life is always full of worries...Is it worry or anticipation? I think I need to let destiny shapes my future. I always want perfection in my work, my life, even my life partner...trying hard in everything I do...and see what I get as of today? Nothing perfect...Single, almost failing my classes, depressed...

Being resilient is the key to my problem, but that's an expensive key to "purchase". I talked so much about what I want in the future, but with current progress in academics and mental preparation, I think I would have hard time achieving my ambitions...

Simple thing like loving a girl is already hard for me. I agreed with my friend's opinion that sometimes you loved the girl so much that you didn't want to approach the girl..Why? Becos you are afraid of the rejection...One solution I can think of is to be generous to the girl, make her happy while I am spending last moments with her.

One last thing, I want to drop out from school...I didn't know why I have this thinking. I never wanted to drop out from school...I always wanted to make my parents proud that I can achieve whatever target they set on me. But I am not too sure now if I can get my master degree by next April. The motivation is just gone. Probably, it is because I felt defeated this term...Can someone help me recover from this "2004 Great Depression"? 2 final exams to score next week. If I don't score well, hell breaks loose...Feeling hopeless, stupid, angry, sad...despite trying to look strong, determined, smart, calm, happy.

Hope tomorrow won't be so cloudy gloomy