I feel a lot of pressure on these few days. Haven't done anything significant to RFT, there are 2 tough homeworks, and a journal paper to work on...of course, the preparation for the battle in Evanston on Friday. Tried to be cheerful and hide the stressful face from people.

I have so much to lose if I can't get ZS. Not to put more pressure on myself, but I have longed for consulting job and this is my last chance to fulfill my dream. There is no backup plan that I can come out with...It is like a captain burning his ship after landing on the enemy's land. If I fail, I will get hurt pretty badly...But I will try to prevent that to happen....Even if it happens, I have prepared a recovery plan....Planning is one of my majors!

I have been watching my favorite korean drama "Love Letter" when I am stressed this week. This melodramatic drama really touched my heart. Who say I am not sensitive? hahaha...My friend said I was quite blunt to girls...I think blunt is good to avoid misunderstanding. Of course, I am learning to be a gentleman. OK, in the drama, I really admired the girl's dedication and love to the guy(This guy wants to be a priest). I even more admired another guy who came between the girl and the priest-to-be. Why? It's because I had experienced the pain this guy had to go through. Anyway, I shall stop watching the drama because it causes me to recall bad memories that happened 8 yrs ago...Probably I will revisit this drama when I find my partner...OK, time for battle plan! Good luck to myself!