Went to Evanston yesterday afternoon and came back to AA just now at 6.30 pm. Only one purpose...ZS...Feeling down because I didn't perform up to my own expectation. I can feel it...Not going to make it. It is painful to see that I am bad in talking...I have the qualities that they need, just I am not good enough in proving them...Oh well, nothing comes so easy to me...We will see in a week...Going to be a tough week for me...I will keep thinking about it...Be strong, young man!

Year of Monkey doesn't do me any good, in fact, it is NOT a good year...I am a Metal Monkey! Ok, gotta work harder and focus...There are only 2 things in my life now, Study and job hunting...nothing can come in between!!!