a 5 yrs cycle

My thought...again...Can't stop thinking as long as I live. I looked back the past 10 yrs of my life.
I realized every 5 yrs, I have to face a big challenge. When I was 15 yrs old, I had to work hard for the ASEAN scholarship and I got it. When I was 20 yrs old, I have to decide between staying in Singapore and coming to Ann Arbor. It is not much of making decision, it is more like convincing my parents to let me come to Umich and here I am. And now, I am almost 25. I would say this is the biggest confusion/challenge I am facing. I can't find a job so far, I am thinking of going back to Singapore and Medan, but I am in doubt. What do I want actually?

Life never comes easy. When you see your friends, one by one, are getting employed, it just tell you that you are not good enough. Well, I am going to take different view. I know very clearly that I don't want to be an employee forever. So, I am constantly looking out for opportunities to be an employer.