Almost Quarter-Life

I was introspecting myself. I am almost 25 yrs old in a few months time, still single, still jobless, no business achievement. Sigh...

I was so workaholic this week. Do I need to re-think if my dedication to ERC will benefit me in the future? I was workaholic because I find my work is under a lot of spotlights. I see the importance of getting my task finished as soon as possible for the NSF visit in May. But I am not sure if I focused so much on ERC work in order to avoid the painful job hunting?

I just met with my senior at Great Lakes restaurant just now. He is a year older than me, he has a very good consulting job in Chicago, has a pretty and smart girlfriend, drive Lexus. He was like a "wake-up" call to me.

How realistic am I about having my own business in Indonesia? Should I follow the common path that most people take? Like find a job after graduation, work a couple of years, get married, and then start thinking abt own business...

My business acumen is really driving me crazy...It is an internal force inside me that keep telling me that my business plan will work out. This force actually distracted me from job hunting...Also coupled by the fact that my mom actually suggested me to go home if I can't find a job in US when I talked to her yesterday...I wish I can see my future in the crystal ball...

I am like driving a car in a busy road trying to find a parking spot. Many cars drove past me and got parking spot. I wish I can own a parking spot in that busy road. One good thing is that I haven't reached the end of the road.

What did I do in my past life? Did I make many people to lost their jobs and I am paying my karma now? It is just too painful to think about job hunting...
I know you can't help me much...