It's hard to forget...

Sometimes, I wish I don't know many people...Maybe a few is enough.
I still think...what would have happened if I didn't come to Hannover? Would my life be different? Definitely...different in a better/worse way? I guess it's heaven's secret. Life is full of ones/zeros, yes/no, true/false. We can't have all of the above/none of the above.

It's a decision I made anyway to come to this boring Europe. No regret...The next move is: Should I return to Asia next year? It's another decision to make. From my judgement, I will go back to Asia next year in May latest. What or Who can change my decision? I don't know. But I will listen more carefully to others' opinions so that I don't have to be sad anymore...

By the way, Happy Halloween. And for tonight, I will drown in my sleep by remembering all the good memories. But I felt sad when we met most of the time...I didn't realize that until now.

Remember Me This Way
Jordan Hill

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

* I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way

I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more apart of time, you're everywhere
I'll always cares


And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won't ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

The saddest day of 2006

Today is the saddest day in 2006. I know this kinda day is inevitable. Last November, I happened to be close to someone, someone whom I really like for long time already. Even my parents liked her so much. So much so that my parents asked me not to go to Germany. But being Hendi, I always go against their wish. Now, I don't know I come to Germany to forget about her or for my career...I am not sure

This year April, the girl asked me. "Hendi, what do you think of (a guy)?. I think he is going after me", said the girl. She also added,"I know you are going to tell me the truth."

Then I started thinking, do I tell her the truth about my opinion on the guy or the truth about my feeling? Then I told her, "He is a good catch. You should pay attention to him." I guess that's it. I have given her a wrong answer. But no regret, because I am still being honest to her in one way.

I send her birthday card and postcards from Germany from time to time, but the last postcard I sent this month has no reply...Well, I am gonna listen to a few songs to forget about today for the rest of this week...Tonight, I dedicate myself this song...

The last words you said
Sarah Brightman with Richard Marx

Somewhere in time I know,
Darling you'll come back to me.
Roses will bloom again,
But Spring feels like eternity.
In your kiss it wasn't goodbye.
You are still the reason why.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were the last words you said to me.

And when the morning comes,
My hands still reach out for you.
Some things remain the same,
There is nothing I can do.
I can barely get through the day
Ever since you went away.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were your last words to me ...

Heaven help us cross this endless sea
With starlight above to guide you to me.
Waves crashing on distant shores,
They're calling our names forever more.

And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever,"
Were the last words you said to me.