The jobless psychology

I sat down reflecting my life since young until now...I have actually experienced quite a lot of things...I fought with a friend in elementary school, I was the second smartest student in my school when I was in Grade 7. I worked as a waiter in a 4 start hotel before, I worked as an office boy before. I experienced the feeling of being poor (quite often). Also I experienced the feeling being rich (when I hang out with my rich cousin). Lastly, I experienced the true feeling of being jobless.

At this time, I wish I don't have interest in business at all...I am so eager to go back home and do some business. It is an internal fight within me in deciding to go back home and to stay in US to work. Nothing can attract me to stay in the US...Nothing at all. I just need to get mental support from my parents to go back...If they are behind me, I surely will feel better.